I have to keep myself calm n shut my mouth… (For sometime)

Bismillah hirohma nirrahim…


Well, last night … I don’t know…
Planned to study alone… yes, I did study but not alone…

Been talk a lot… as always... (my hobby)
I did remind myself and others, not to get too exited with something
Yes, you can have fun… as much as you want… but don’t get too much…
That’s what my late father taught my sisters and me when he still alive…
And yes, I’m agreed with him…because he is totally right bout this…
I did experienced the consequence…when we get too excited and have too much of fun.
(Most of the time will cry after that… hahahah)
But, don’t know why, I’m still want have so much fun (sometimes)…

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb…
Please forgive me…

Thinks, itulah punishment to remind me, to be calm and relax…
Thank you Allah, Ya Rahman
by giving me that thought, I’m learn from my mistakes…

Last night, I don’t know how I got that strength to fight back…
Yes, I did fight back…
Not like before, just gave every opportunities for her to talk…
To say this and that…

This thing happens right after I laugh too much…
Emmm, I will remember these for the rest of my life.
That’s for sure…

Hahahaha…returned to home, I’m smiling…
I’m telling myself, “you wanna fight, lets go and fight!”

Last night jugak, I asked him…
“Should I cry? For what I’ve said and done”
He replied,
“No, you shouldn’t”

But, this morning…I’m felt a bit guilty…
I’m felt pity to her…but at the same time, think I need to give her some lessons…

I told to my friends’ bout what happened last night…
They said, “You go girl!”
But at the same time, please be careful…
Yes, I will be careful and extra careful…
Will care bout what will happens next and what I’m going to says next time…

I don’t want to hurts people. Especially their feeling by saying this and that or act like this and that…

Yes, it is not easy to make people please…
But I’m trying everyday…even it will make me damn hurt…

Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, please guide me…please protect me and show me…
Ya Allah, Ya Rahman… please guide me…

And I did pray, everyday, things will be over soon…
Soon, please…coz I’m damn hurt!!
And I don’t want to live like this…